i am lost.

I think there was a time when i know that i was a happy, sweet, intellectual, pretty, loving person.

I feel like a cracked porcelin shell of a person i used to be.

Last night my best friend was taking a shower in my bathroom because she did a hot oil treatment on her hair and needed to wash it out. My dad started going off on me - he caled me worthless and lazy and irresponsable so i started packing my green suitcase hot tears rolling my face and i told him i was leaving and he said fine go fuck somewhere else up. My mother told me she would die without me around so here i am. still.

nothing makes sense.