someone gave me a tract in Union Square Park on sunday. i was sitting on a bench with my mom who had her arm around my shoulder because she stubbed her toe and was walking weird. I think the angry christian man thougth we were lovers, thus angry heathens and were in need of a pamplet titled "DOES GOD LOVE YOU?"
I am so glad this bullshit all happened after lunch becuase i completely lost my appetite and if you know me you know that i don't eat.
It kept refering to the bible as "God lawbook" which i don't really see as true at all and started talking about why you shouldn't join a church because thats not how God works anymore.
things like this make me question my entire worldview. sometimes i'm a deist. if somebody doesn't shake me around, i'm going to become a deist. i don't see god in the world at all
So i have it thumbtacked above my desk and every once and a while i look through it and my heart sinks.
i sit here today with my heart in my hands. I feel ike i'm standing at a crossroads, i can either sell my soul (thats what you do at a crossroads, you go there for powerful spells too) or choose a direction.
oh by the way i learned this today and it made me pretty happy:
"Current techniques for total surgical repair greatly improve the hemodynamic function of the heart with tetralogy of Fallot but do not provide a lifetime correction of the defect. Ninety percent of patients with total repair as infants develop a progressively leaky pulmonary valve as the heart grows to its adult size. Patients also may have some degree of residual right outflow stenosis and damage to the electrical system of the heart from surgical incisions, causing abnormalities as detected by EKG and/or arrhythmias.
Long-term follow up studies show that this patient population is at risk for sudden cardiac death and for heart failure."
I've got a lot to look forward to :)
5 comments:
You are never alone. How can you be? You are a Godchild.
I am currently "facing" this same scenario. I am on a never-ending quest for the truth. I question the "unthinkable" and walk where angels fear to tread.
I have been called a blaphemer, a heretic, and simply lost in my wanderings. But the truth of the matter is,
I am on an incredible journey; one that often times necessitates being alone, but also one by necessity means I am never alone.
God walks with you every step of your journey, every footfall of your day. You are never alone.
please keep questioning.
Don't thumbtack and hold onto that sh**...throw it away! (or rather recycle it, but make sure to shred it first) What kind of crazy tract is that anyway?
I don't really know what to say about the faith crossroads, etc., but if you ever want a listening ear, I'm here. (this is 'quiet' from the ooze, btw).
Also, what's this about heart failure?! Granted, there's obviously a lot I don't know about you yet, but I'm interested to hear what's goin on.
Seriously, I have yet to see a good tract. They are all about inducing guilt in their victims. So don't be that victim.
Crossroads are hard, but you don't have to plan out your whole life all at once. Make each decision day by day and you'll get a handle on it.
And don't be to worried about your heart, honey. Its full of love, so it will last longer than they think . ;)
Love ya!
"Seriously, I have yet to see a good tract. They are all about inducing guilt in their victims. So don't be that victim."
This is the old Bad-News-First-Gospel The Evangelical One-Two-Punch. I don't buy into that shit either. It isn't our jobs to convince the world of it's sin or it's "condemnation".
Spreading the Bad News is not what we've been called to do. Spreading the Good News is. It's not complicated.
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