Its raining outside my window - I just got new drapes they're electric blue and lime green which makes my room a little bit crazier. They make me smile and smiling is important. I think Aslan likes them too, and if he's happy, I'm happy. I never thought I would love anything as much as I love him and I think he loves me back.

I was out today, walking around in my red heels and I realized that I am a girl without a people. I'm not really in college. I'm not in high school. I'm not an adult, I'm not a kid. I'm not a democrat or a republican. I'm christian but i have no denomination and I am kind of a heretic. So for a second I felt very very lost and very very scared and then I burst out laughing becuase iIwas hit with a bolt of lightning of wisdom:

I am a very happy girl with a very happy cat living simply in a very complicated world and I can accept that or I can try to shimmy into a mold or two that I will never fit.

I feel like I should be scared and nervous because it seems like everyone else it afraid of something or worrying about the future and all I can seem to do is smile and be absolutely certain that despite all of the crap around us everything is going to be okay. You would be amazed at how angry it makes people

my mom says I'm stupid.
nancy says that I have the best kind of faith.
I say i'm just doing my thing.


btw - I just watched elizabethtown which is like my new favourite movie becuase I am exactly like Claire and I am in love with this quote:

"No true fiasco ever began as a quest for mere adequacy. A motto of the British Special Air Force is: 'Those who risk, win.' A single green vine shoot is able to grow through cement. The Pacific Northwestern salmon beats itself bloody on it's quest to travel hundreds of miles upstream against the current, with a single purpose, sex of course, but also... life "